When the divine calls
As I was brushing my teeth one night, I was reminded of the contract I made with the divine. I had forgotten.
When my husband was ill we didn’t know what the outcomes would be of having non-Hodgkins lymphoma and my heart was blasted wide open in various ways.
I was driving home from the hospital one day during this time and I as I looked at a wide expanse of sky and the glorious cloud formations I said out loud,
If you bring my husband back to health, I will be in service to you fully, completely, totally. Whatever you will have me do.
Now I thought that was surrender, when actually it was more like bargaining. But that’s the best I could do at the time.
So spitting out the toothpaste in the basin last night, this gentle reminder of what I had said. But what’s truly remarkable is that I realised I have been fulfilling this without consciously being aware of it. I have been willing to put my small self aside and do what I am prompted to do by something much bigger and vaster. This is no small thing. Often it feels way too big for me to step into and yet I’m willing.
I’m willing to get out of my own way and do what’s required of me to be in service to the divine, to myself, to people who come to me for guidance. I have to say, sometimes I lie awake at night and feel like I don’t have it in me, but then I realise its happening despite my personal feelings.
It doesn’t matter that I’m an introvert or that I’m highly sensitive, that I need lots of solitude and alone time.
Sometimes it’s damn scary to do what I feel pulled to do. When I feel like this I silently ask for help (more like a pleading prayer) and then I seem to be able to do things I wouldn’t have imagined.
Aligning more deeply with the will of the divine doesn’t mean its easy. It means stepping up into your TRUE power, your innate Shakti feminine power, the guiding force in your life.
We are powerful and we pretend not to be. Its not intentional. We’ve been shown an abuse of true power. The control, the dominion over others. This is what’s to be transformed when we step into our true power to create, serve, prosper..
When something calls you and it feels downright scary, the way through is to be willing.
W I L L I N G
to align with the divine
to attune to your innate Shakti power
to trust your own heart because it knows.
It’s a wild ride into unknowns, uncontrollables, mysteries that aren’t meant to be solved.
There is tremendous JOY being in service aligned with something vaster than your small self.
Would love to hear from you about what power is for you.
Sending you so much love,
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